Thougth:

I'm completely beaten up by my own thoughts. It's just so hard to believe in something that I've denied for so long—something that has betrayed me so many times. I wanna get out of this prison of me. So bad. I'm trying, I really am. But the way I've betrayed myself shatters me. I blame no one but me. It's so hard.

Still, here I am, telling myself not to give up. I won't. This stupid letter will be the witness—either I will get up and meet my promise, or it will be just another bullshit of betrayal.